In reminiscence of Dozer – RecipeTin Eats

I held his paw and slept by his aspect for 14 days in hospital. Nevertheless it turned out, all of the love on the earth wasn’t sufficient to save lots of him. Thus begins the ultimate publish on Lifetime of Dozer.

My dearest Dozer,

You got here into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after virtually 14 years collectively, I held you in my arms protectively once more as I stated goodbye.

I used to be sobbing so laborious, I forgot the whole lot I needed to say to you in our ultimate moments collectively.

So I began scripting this letter to you, to say all these issues.

I needed to reminisce about our fantastic instances – the hundreds of visits to the canine seashore, all of the fantastic meals we sampled collectively, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our street journeys.

I needed to thanks for spreading the enjoyment that’s you with readers all all over the world, for fortunately coming together with me to fulfill readers at occasions, e book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, to not point out TV exhibits, photograph shoots, and my gosh, we will’t neglect our stint on Play College!

However as I sit right here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I wish to say to you.

What I wish to say is thanks.

Thanks for giving me your entire coronary heart.

Thanks for giving me your unconditional loyalty.

Thanks for loving me simply as I’m, for all my flaws, for by no means caring what I weigh, what I put on, what I appear like.

Thanks for at all times being there, my one fixed via the nice and dangerous instances.

Thanks for making me smile, even on the toughest of days.

And thanks for making an attempt so laborious to stick with me so long as you may, combating to heal till your final day. I’ll always remember how deep you needed to dig to seek out the energy to your rehab stroll on our ultimate morning collectively.

I do know that sooner or later, I can have a look at images of you once more with out sobbing. And I do know all this ache I’m feeling is as a result of I cherished you so fiercely and fully, and I wouldn’t commerce it for a second I acquired to spend with you.

However proper now, 4 days after saying goodbye, it feels just like the heartbreak won’t ever heal, like I’ll by no means smile once more.

Relaxation in peace, my darling Dozer. I’ll always remember you, and I’ll by no means cease loving you.

Love,

Your mum xoxo

Thanks SASH

To the vets and nurses on the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),

Thanks for the extraordinary care, talent, and kindness you confirmed Dozer. Each second, from the medical experience to the mild reassurance and cheering him on, meant extra to me than I can say. Understanding he was in such succesful, compassionate fingers gave me consolation through the hardest days. I’ll at all times be deeply grateful for the whole lot you probably did for my lovely boy. – Nagi x